Monday, June 13, 2011

In surgery

Hi, all.  We got here by 6:30 and Hannah was in the OR by 8.  We got to go with her and wait while the gas took effect.  She was pretty nervous and scared.  Seeing us in surgical garb with face masks on probably didn't help.  We were so happy Dr. Uncle Scott could come in with us too.  We got one update already, to say that she was prepped and ready for Dr. Anderson to work his magic-the prep takes about an hour and a half as they have to intubate her, turn her onto her stomach and place the electrodes on her legs that will measure the spasticity.  We'll probably get another update in about 2 hours just to let us know how it's going, and then she will be done around 2 or 3.  So far the staff has been great and we feel like she is in the best hands, getting the best care.

The hardest thing-other than watching them put her to sleep-was seeing how scared she was and feeling like maybe I didn't tell her enough about what exactly was going to happen.  We took our queue from her and figured if she had questions, we'd answer them as best we could.  We also told her a little of what to expect-they'll put you to sleep, we'll have to sleep here, you will be weak at first and then we'll work to get you stronger-but we didn't go into that much more detail.  I hope she doesn't wake up feeling like we betrayed her, like "WTF did you guys do to me?!" But I keep thinking that if we did tell her more, it would probably not make her any less scared or  feel less pain when she wakes up.  It would also make her more anxious.

But I still hope she forgives me for putting her through this...

Anyway, more updates to come as we know them.

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